God wins

Its Friday again.  I always wake up on Fridays with that pit in my stomach, that fluttering of anxiety in my heart…why can’t we just skip Fridays?

Everyone else celebrates them. TGIF.  Yippee.

I was doing OK.  Until I looked at facebook (yes that again) and saw a picture of a huge group of FHC freshman at a pool party.

Oh God.  Oh God why.

I’ve described pain so many times in the 70 or so times that I have blogged.  I have talked about it in so many ways, tried to describe it in every possible light.  Drowning in an ocean.  Being cut from the inside with glass.  Having your heart ripped out of your chest and replaced with rocks.

All I can think right now is- gut-wrenching.  An often used phrased.  Probably to the point where it doesn’t even get the proper response- it doesn’t even mean anything anymore.

Think of your guts.  Your insides.  Your core.  The very center of your existance.  Twisted. crushed, squeezed until they no longer resemble anything whole and healthy.  Just beaten.

The thing though, is after you cry and cry and cry and cry eventually you just stop and you have to go on.  You just…have to.

I’m supposed to be making candles.  My friend took my littles so I could make candles.  I sell them, you see, to raise money for Guatemala.  For a van to help people who are hurting in Guatemala.

The candle money is going to do a bit of traveling, though you see.  First the money will help to  hire a lawyer so that the Live Like Lucas Foundation is created.  A non-profit.  So that when the LLL 5k happens in October, there will be a non-profit for corporate, or individual sponsors to contribute to.  Then we will have a successful race.  It is going to be an incredible race.  That, ladies and gentlemen, is how we are going to make some big money for Guatemala.

Big things are happening.  Race planning, non-profit planning, LLL is going to grow and grow and grow.  Cuz guess what.

god wins

Yup. God wins.

God is going to win through this gut-wrenching tragedy.




10 Responses to God wins

  1. Brian says:

    I like your plan a lot.

  2. Kristin says:

    Love you!

  3. Rk says:

    You have no clue who I am…it doesn’t matter…we all are listening, wishing and praying for some peace in your heart.

  4. Jennifer says:

    I love this so much.

  5. Teresa G. says:

    I look forward to running in the LLL 5k!!! Are you goin to run? A 5k is a great idea to raise funds!! Let me know if you want a running buddy! Love you sweet girl.

  6. Arlene says:

    Melissa, Where can we purchase the candles? Thanks, Arlene

    • melissaconner2015 says:

      Right now they are just at my house but I will be bringing them to a couple stores soon- All things Medical on Forest Hills Ave or Lole in Gaslight Village. Or you can pick them up at my house at 5611 Cascade Rd Se Grand Rapids MI 49546. you can email me at melissa_conner@comcast.net to pick up. thanks!

  7. Bwth says:

    What a great plan! I would love to run for LLL!

  8. Evy says:

    Your blog couldn’t have been more timely. Yesterday I woke up and wondered why in the heck did I set my alarm for a Saturday morning?! Then panic set in, oh my gosh, I was supposed to meet a friend for breakfast, no wait that’s next weekend, no what date was that? Wait a minute, what day is it? I ran upstairs to check the calendar, oh my gosh, it’s Friday, not Saturday. So instead of the thought of a day off and meeting my friend for breakfast, I get ready for work. (Guilty here, I wrote TGIF on FB) Each day is a gift, sometimes we want to return it or exchange it for something else, but God is working his purpose out. (don’t you hate it when people say that? It’s really true though) Although I don’t know how it feels to lose a child, I do know about how it feels to have a dark cloud over your head. My daughter was diagnosed at a 1 1/2 years old with a disease that has no cure. Being a Christian, how we face and how we respond to challenges sets an example so that others may find hope and strength. I love that you are making/selling candles. (I’d love to buy some by the way, let me know where/how). May His light shine though the darkness and grant you peace.

  9. Joan says:

    Continue praying for you for comfort. God is loving you by keeping you busy with LLL keeping what Lucas felt important in his life but now you. God bless you & LLL.

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