“pain is the most individualizing thing on earth. It is true that it is the great common bond as well, but that realization comes when it is over. To suffer is to be alone. To watch another suffer is to know the barrier that shuts each of us away by himself.
Only individuals can suffer.”
I walk this path alone. My suffering is mine and mine alone. God walks it with me but he cannot take it away. Every morning I wake up and realize my child is gone. My beloved child is gone. No matter how much I try to distract myself during the day, and it is a pretty futile attempt, I still have to wake up to that every day. Right now I’m not sure what to do with that except say it. I am hurting. I am walking a lonely road. I am the ONLY mother of THIS child and no one else can understand that hurt.
I hurt. So bad.
All that helps me right now is thinking about revelation- when God comes to make everything new and everything right. I cling to that.
Philippians 3:20 “But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body.”
I Thessalonians 4: 16-17 “For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of god, and the dead in Christ will rise first. After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever.”
This was sent to me in an Ada Bible church email several days ago. I just opened it this morning- it is called “revelation song”